How come on same days everything seems possible? That you could accomplish anything you put your mind to, that everything is in alignment, everyone is happy, and your goals seem within reach.
And then the next day.....everything seems impossible. Your goals are just dreams, and just that...dreams. That you have stretched yourself too thin and nothing can be accomplished. Snap - just like that - in one day your mental attitude is completely different.
That is what has happened to me in the last few days. I was so tired this last weekend and it turned out I was/am sick. My lack of motivation has continued through the whole week and I haven't felt like myself all week.
I have so many ideas on how to accomplish my goals. I have my schedule in my head and the ideas are all there. But sometimes my body can just not keep up and it gives out on me.
I am a full time working mom and sometimes everything just becomes too overwhelming and my body reacts to the stress/craziness/lack of sleep. And that is what happened to me this week.
I need to figure out how to perform physically to accomplish all my physical goals without making myself sick. I really feel I need to learn how to relax during the day...the day to day routine puts my body at stress because I am constantly worried about something - work, kids, dinner, getting everything done. I can feel my body tense up everyday and I really need to learn how to control that stress, because it does affect my physically -
I need to tell myself -
It's okay if I am 10 minutes late picking up the boys from daycare.
It's okay if we have cereal for dinner one night.
It's okay if the house is dirty, the clothes needs to be washed and there are dried raisins and rice on the kitchen floor.
It's okay if I miss that meeting at work.
It's okay - that everything is going to be okay. It's hard to remember this when your're running around day after day.
But if I want to accomplish my physical goals, I need to learn to control this stress. I don't believe it's the working out that is causing my body to break down. I really think it is the way I handle the stress of the day to day routines that causes me to get sick and worn down.
How do I do this? I have been like this my whole life, so how do I control the way I handle it. This is something I need to figure out.